Things are good- despite the fact I had a major computer malfunction and lost everything on my Macbook last Friday. It was such a stressful time. Although, I did get put through to a senior advisor in California who helped me recover some files and music (not nearly everything I once had) and learned all about his volunteering for snow rescue patrol and his previous ten year employment at REI. Gotta love getting to know strangers.
I was assigned the book Tuesday’s with Morrie in class and I just wanted to share a passage with you that struck me about my life as a whole and not just the cancer-blip.
“… detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience *penetrate* you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you *fully*. That’s how you are able to leave it.
…Take any emotion – love for a woman, or grief for a loved one…. if you hold back on the emotions – if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them – you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. … I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.”
…“Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely – but eventually be able to say, ‘All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I’m not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I’m going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I’m going to experience them as well.”